Three weeks of hell

I am so glad that school is almost to an end, but I just wish they had not crammed EVERYTHING into these last 3 weeks! I mean come on, a paper, VCE's, a test, practicum and 2 finals all in 3 weeks. Not to mention I still have to go to the hospital and everything! Although, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel :) Going to Ga will be SUCH a nice break to get away from all the stress here and to just relax and celebrate a holiday with family I don't really get to see and to be in a state I have never really visited.

So, on the other hand studying is really killing me. Ever notice toward the ends of semesters your focus kind of wanders and you cannot really focus on much of anything? Yeah, tack that on with the fact that I am a HUGE procrastinator and I wait till the last minute to do everything! I made a study schedule, have I stuck to it? No not Abbey......sheesh........

Still have lots of christmas shopping to do. No idea what I am going to get half the people I have to buy for. Jon and I still need to take our christmas picture and send out the cards. Just another thing on my list. Not to mention all the baking and the wrapping I am going to have to do in the next couple of weeks......

GAH! Talk about sit and take a deep breath! Keeping this weight down has not been any easier either. I said I was not going to feel any guilt at all from Turkey day....well I lied. 5 lbs later and I am miserable! It has been so hard to get back on track and stay on track! But like I said to Jon last night, "If I really wanted to be skinny, I would just do it and get it over with and be done with it!" So.....well I want it badly, I am just losing focus in certain areas, and that is one of them. It is just so much easier to go to the pantry and grab a rice crispie than to make a salad and chop up the veggies..... :/

Oh well, I will get a lock on this shit, I HAVE to for my health and just for me to be able to feel good about myself again. I just want all of the clothes in my closet to fit nice, not tightly and ok, but I want to look good and feel good in all of my clothes.

Well that is enough from me, I am sposed to be making flash cards....bleck

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