Perspective

The symphony tonight was amazing......I mean, it made me sad, I even started crying during it because it made me realize that, that could be me. I could be one of the flute players in the symphony doing what I love every day. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE nursing, I love people and taking care of them, and helping them out any and every way that I can...but my love for music runs so deep. It is what I am, it is who I am.....and it is what will always consume my heart.

Tomorrow is the day before the test, in which I will retreat to the office upstairs and not emerge until I know everything backwards, forewards, up, down, left, and right. I just need to do well these last couple of weeks.....it's like, my last leg so to say. If I go to Ga and I havent made it through this tough Journey after all of my hard work, I don't know what I will do with myself. Im def remaining as positive as possible.

The days are seeming to come and go faster and faster. Jon and I set a date, and I know pretty much all the details for the wedding. I know it is going to just jump up before I know it and it is going to be hella crazy, stressful, and another amazing adventure to enjoy with my honey, my friends, and my family.

Im still missing religion in my life. Every now and again I get little pieces reminding me how much it impacted my life and how much I actually participated in church. Between the music and the singing and the worship, and just feeling good with your friends and the ones you love.....def a hole there that I desperatly need to fill, with God that is.....

Still struggling with the weight, we are sposed to go back to hitting it hard starting on Monday, SoooooOOooooo.......we shall see.......all I know is that I need to get a hold on this shit......it is making me feel self conscious and, basically I am just sick of being overweight. I WILL control this.....it will not control me, it has my whole life, I can't let it anymore.

:) Almost bedtime :)

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