So christmas was nice. I really enjoyed getting presents for everyone and then seeing the looks on everyone's faces. It really made me smile :) I took tons of pictures and everything.

I have been having some weird dreams lately and I am beginning to think that it is due to the increase of junkfood I have been eating since my brother has been here. It sounds like an excuse to eat junk food, but lets just call it a theory :)

Anywho, I am not sure what today holds in store for me. My morning has been keeping me occupied.

My little bro is down for most of the week and lets just say that I have been kept busy because he is so messy......

So Im watching spongebob, who knows what else the day will bring forth.....

Oh my, Oh my. Viking football.

Yeah so they are pretty much getting schooled by the redskins right now......16-0 in the 3rd quarter and now 22 nothing....exscuse me.......and they had 4 turnovers in the 1st half....4 TURNOVERS...WTF!?!!??!?

Moving on...

I get to go to h-town tomorrow and see my rents and my friends and then its christmas! I cant wait! Cause I love christmas! And then New years! And we get to get suuuupa Drunk.....greif.....cannot wait :)

Yeah so this weekend....must say...DEF the best ever. We had some peeps over, and our roomies and we got super fucked up..it was HELLA fun. I wish I would have taken pictures.....

Anywho, christmas is in 2 days and some change and I am excited about it...I can't wait actually! I get my new phone today as well....

Gotta let the pups in.

Sold another video game today. Craigslist has been good to me. :)

Things between hubby and I are back to normal....just in time for christmas....thanks santa :)

Have a lot to do today to get ready for the long weekend with christmas and all. Its quite exciting! I LOVE Christmas! ^_^ And I dont have to cook tonight thank goodness!!!

Goodness knows what we are doing tonight. I def. know that I am going to be doing some excersise today. Me and my fat but. I have lost weight everyday this week though.

I never cease to amaze myself :)

Emotion packed morning.....

I finally got to talk to someone about how I am feeling about my relationship with hubby. I picked the wrong person to talk to....but wow...what great advice....!

Bout to eat lunch, maybe watch a movie and relax with the dogs.

I feel like I have had some weight lifted from my chest.....feels like I can breathe a little better.

Okay so I def. want a kitten. I don't know why I cannot be completely happy with my 2 dogs but I am just not. I want something else that I can smother with affection. Weird right? I know....but I have such a stupid obsession. I will get over it eventually.

I played DDR for an hour straight yesterday and kicked some ass.....it was fun, I am about to start playing here in a little bit actually.

When my hubby came home last night I def. showed him some love and affection that he has been missing obviously. I made dinner and the whole nine yards. We watched TV and everything. I must say I was super dissapointed in the Tila Tequilla and the Biggest Loser results. Not the best results. I was not impressed. Tila should have picked Dani. But its not socially accepted so what did she do....took the safe road.

This morning we were awoken by hubby's work pager.....great huh? 5 mins before the main office opens and of course it had to ring and he had to fix it at 7am. So thats what time I got up to because I can't sleep through anything like most people can.

Lots of drama this morning. Enough said.

Went to the SPCA.....could'nt go in....enough said......

Today has been SO productive for me and I am very happy with myself for once actually. :)

I am trying to talk myself out of going out and adopting a kitten for the simple fact that I dont want my JRT to eat it and then me end up hating myself. But I can't help this obsession that I have! My hubby is super sick of this obsession that I have and I know he is even though he is so good to me and deals with all of my quarks. I dont know where in the world I would be without him...maybe I need to say these things to him more often and let him know just how important he is to me....wow....talk about practicing what you preach......

Morning

Yes....Im awake....another day and more dieting.

Once again we are watching Mike and Mike on ESPN...greattt. :/ Anyways, I have a list of tasks I have to get done today like normal. I have to go mail our christmas cards and hubby's Mom's gift, and go buy a present for our roommate who doesnt really deserve much of a present...mean...yeah....now I kinda feel bad....

But he wants a baseball hat....not something that is a bad thing to want to get but oh well.........

Lots to do....not enough time
Hurry up School

Its almost 11....we are watching football...yay right?? I am getting very tired I worked hard today. I exersised and everything. Chocolate is my weak point....o well though right?? I will get ahold of it all right?? right. I got this.

well..Im tired....I dont know what Im going to do tomorrow. I bought Ace a super cute sweater today.....he seemed devastated when I put it on him lol. Kept him warm and he got used to it.

<3

Day One

Alright, so..I just have no idea what to do with myself. I keep getting in fights with my lover boy over stupid shit constantly. It has been a year and a couple of months, engaged, and we are tighter than you can believe. Its just the small things that seem to be getting to me.

I am pretty upset due to my weight, it is really starting to hit me that I need to lose some weight. But I just don't feel like dieting so close to christmas is going to be effective, but of course he wants to drop some weight. I want to drop weight too because of course Im not suuuuper happy with my weight and it is kind of depressing that the clothes in my closet do not fit but I have kind of accepted some things even though this is something that I can gain control over and handle I just have an issue with self control when it comes to food.

I can handle this completely though, I just know it. I just need some time and patience and understanding from the people who are around me and the people who love me.